THAMMMM.

This is my awesome girlfriend, Chowlyn Ng.

I've known her from JC, my classmate.

I always have the urge to bully her,

just simply because she's such a nice person.

We've had many good times together,

eye candying guys in school,

gossiping about the people during our breaks,

and having our htht.

Most important of all, our sogurt outings.

That's the place where we chill out and update each other about stuff.

And of course enjoy yoghurt together.

These are the precious moments that

I can't create with anyone else except her.

We have been through the toughest times together and

enjoyed the best times together as well.

I never want our friendship to end anytime soon.

And I know it wouldn't.

As long as I'm alive.

We keep exchanging stories till we get old ohkay, Chow.

I do cherish her alot, just that I don't show it.

Bullying is my way of showing my LOVE FOR HER. ;D

(Hahah)

I'm sure she knows I'm kidding whenever she gets bullied.

We shall create more happy moments together.

I miss classroom fun with you, Chow.

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Sunday, December 18, 2011 9:14 PM

He is my friend, the person I used to love.

But since the last email, things have changed.

I'm being so honest here because I actually hope he sees this.

But he might just be too busy with every other thing to read it.

I realized only yesterday that I didn't know how to react to the change

so I thought by being cool and all things will be fine.

Little did I know I was hurting myself inside.

By acting like everything was alright and still be friends wasn't a good idea after all.

He was the first guy who told me I was beautiful,

also the first guy whom I cried for.

But he is such a nice person that

you will never want to blame him for anything.

The times we had together were so unforgettable to me

that when I revisit the places we went to,

I clearly remember the things we did and the pictures taken.

They were happy short films that played in my head.

But yknow, everything comes to an end.

So is my situation.

It's time you get out of my head wherever I go.

It's time I stop thinking for you and spare a thought for myself.

Thanks for the great memories, go out there and enjoy your life

while I enjoy mine.

I wish the best for you.

Heave a sigh of relief

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12:41 AM

Every post will be an introduction about one of my friends.

Today will be about this close friend of mine, Ng Yongxiang.

He's my JC bandmate since 2010.

Ohkay, that seemed so recent only,

but I know we had many memories together already.

When I first got to know him, it seemed that we're like friends since primary school.

At least for me it seemed that way.

And since we are the few who stay in the west of Singapore,

we will, most of the time go home together.

These are the moments where we bonded,

the go-home times, on the train.

Sometimes crapping through our way home,

sometimes serious talks.

We also go to the same tuition for General Paper.

And accumulate much of the memories there too.

Also, both of us, gamblers.

Nahhh, we just love to go for dry swimming,

mahjong sessions.

With two other awesome friends.

Always so aunty and bitchy.

He is a super funny and hilarious guy.

Shamelessly jovial.

Now that school's ended for us, I really wish we could still meet up,

have fun and laugh like we used to.

Sometimes, holidays can be a bitch too.

It sets friends apart, when we all have different plans.

Anyway, Yongxiang, if you see this you see this, don't tell me kkk. :)

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Saturday, December 17, 2011 9:57 AM

Hi everybody. I wanna blog again.

This time I'll be honest about my life.

It sounds so superficial. Actually, I'll just treat this as my journal

and pour out my feelings.

If anyone sees it, they see it.

If they don't, then they don't.

I have been enjoying life after my A's.

Going out, meeting up with friends whom I've never seen for years.

Spending time with relatives I've never done since school was a bitch.

Killing time by working at ColorWash.

Lazing around at home catching up with Gossip Girl episodes I have been missing out.

Tumblring all day long.

Whenever I'm outdoors, it seems that couples are everywhere.

I don't really know why they get my attention so much,

but for what I know is that I really want to be loved as well.

It sounds silly and ridiculous but I could really "use some love". (Hahah)

Now it sounds like I take this matter lightly?

No no no, I don't.

Anyway, the fact that everyone's getting a someone special and I don't, really gets me going.

Of my meagre experiences in relationships, I have failed badly and still failing.

So maybe I am fated to be single.

Which is something not so bad either.

(I hope)

MBIL

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Friday, July 01, 2011 9:33 AM

Well, I'm back to blogging.
Cause I feel that there are many things I would like to express.

And I can't find a better place to write it down than here.
I went for dinner at one of the shopping malls today.

When I was going up the escalator,

I overheard a few China Chinese conversing.

Their accents were really strong that's why I know where they're from.

Then I started to think why are we so bias against them.

Some of us have legitimate reasons,
maybe they are viewed as competitors in our country.

But some of us dislike them just because they are much different than us.

I admit, I have the latter thoughts when I see them.

I then immediately think again,

"They didn't do anything wrong, why am I so against them?"

They also want to have a chance to live a good life.

Who am I to dislike them?
Maybe they talk loudly on trains,

maybe they do weird stuff that we don't prefer.

But it's their tradition and daily routine,

they need time to get use to our customs.

Maybe the foreigner that you saw was one

who just arrived in Singapore not too long ago?

I guess the lesson I learnt from this is that there are many possibilities

and that jumping to conclusions is something we always do that should be changed.

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Tuesday, February 01, 2011 8:05 AM

reality

Everyday after school,

I have to face to reality of going home alone.

The way to the train station is quite a long walk.

During that stroll, my mind starts to wander.

Many things/problems came to my mind.

Think, walk, think, walk.

Finally, I reached the train station.

Upon reaching destination,

it's important to check the timings of the arrival of the trains.

As I stay really far away from school,

I always have the urgency to want to get home.

Since there's still quite a time for the train to arrive,

I could at least take my time to walk from the control station to the platform.

The train is always pack with different people.

There will never be a seat to rest my feet unless during non-peak periods.

Whenever I reached my destination, I will fight with the rest of the passengers for the escalator, not because I'm rushing for time, but because the escalator is the only time for me to rest, even if it's for less than a minute.

Always feeling so tired, stressed out and depressed.

Nothing can change that,

it's just difficult.

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Wednesday, December 22, 2010 3:02 AM

I miss you very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very very much.

Do you know?

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Wednesday, December 15, 2010 3:57 AM

Taiwan Trip

It was our luck that we got the window seat.

I saw how fluffy and real the clouds were,

even though it wasn't my first time.

I was hyped up for the trip.

On the airplane, I got reminded of my Hong Kong trip with the band.

I actually miss the experience with the band so much.

The emptiness in me was really overwhelming.

But excitement overtook it.

Well, as you can see we've reached Taipei.
And these photos were taken on the

High Speed 700T Train.
It was so fast that I felt the pressure through my ears.

But it was an interesting experience.
The ambience was as good as felt on the plane.

The many Taiwanese I see are mostly working adults.

Upon seeing them, I got the sudden urge to work here too.

to be continued...

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